Week 15

Tuesday, I had my first appointment with Dr. Morrison.. she was okay. Maybe I just think so much of Dr. Glynn and my nurse here in Sabetha that no matter how wonderful my new doctor was, she just wasn't going to measure up to Dr. Glynn. In 28 days, (Feb. 24th) I get to have my third ultrasound and we get to find out the sexes of the babies. My mom and I are very excited about that. There isn't a basketball game that evening so hopefully, we will have time to run around and buy a few baby things. I can't wait any longer!! I was thisclose to buying some maternity jeans but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I keep saying "I'm not THAT pregnant." Or, "I'm not pregnant enough for maternity jeans." And I'm NOT! I got a little band thingy that will let me wear my jeans unbuttoned so I can go longer without maternity jeans. I also got some leggings to wear under my jeans when I'm working at the store because it gets cold up there! Anyway, my appointment went well with my doctor. She told me that the twins are fraternal and because pregnancies with multiples are higher risk than a singleton pregnancy I am considered "high risk" but I am the lowest of the high risk.. so not really high risk at all. I bought a diaper bag already.. It hasn't come in yet but it will soon! I also accidently got a matching wallet.. oops. :) Dr. Morrison told me that I will get to have an ultrasound every month throughout my pregnancy, which I'm pretty excited about. The babies will most likely be delivered at Stormont in Topeka because they have a NICU. I'm still bummed that I don't get to have them in Sabetha, but the safety of the babies comes first. Also, this week I have been feeling itty bitty little baby flutters. Its usually when I'm relaxing in the evening and it just feels like someone is flicking or poking me from the inside. It's fun :)

Have a good weekend!

Love,
Olivia, Baby A, and Baby B 

(Who are now the size of apples)

Week 14

Just a small update of my week! Getting a little anxious to feel a kick or punch or something exciting, but I know I probably have a few weeks yet. Also, I want to point out that I had an awful headache and a small case of the pregnant girl rage when this photo was taken. Maybe the next one will be cuter! And maybe someday I'll have my printer set up so I can scan the pictures of my critters.

Have a great weekend! :)

Seeing Double

I've been wanting to write about this since I found out, but 1.) my laptop's hard drive crashed...or something. It is living at Best Buy until it gets fixed which sadly means that I cannot drool over cute baby pictures on Pinterest or shop for crib bedding, or baby clothes. and 2.) I wanted to wait until I had a "baby bump" picture taken.. which hasn't happened yet. Mainly because I'm forgetful. And I don't really have a bump. Its more of a pooch. And if you didn't know I was pregnant, you would just think I was a little chubby.

Tuesday, January 3rd, I went to the hospital with my mom for my first ultrasound. I also had to get a flu shot and have my blood drawn so the excitement of seeing my little blueberry for first time was masked by my sheer terror of the needles that were going to be poking me afterward. We got to the hospital, checked in, waited a few minutes and went on into the dark room where the guy with the sea shell necklace does your ultrasound. (He for real has a sea shell necklace. And he's very sweet.) I layed on the table and my mom took a seat in the chair. I lifted my shirt up and tucked a towel into my pants and the guy squeezed the warm gooey stuff onto my still flat belly. (Side note- The night before my ultrasound I had told Meagan "I bet they're going to tell me I'm not even pregnant. I just have some sort of  weird flu that makes me feel awful all the time and made my woman cycle stop"...oh how wrong I was!!) He started to wave the little wand around on my belly and I was watching the screen intently. I don't know ANYTHING about ultrasounds but I had this weird feeling.. and then I thought I saw two sacks. He didn't say much for about a minute and I was getting a little panicky. FINALLY after what felt like thirty years of waiting, the man with the sea shell necklace said "Well, here's a head and a heartbeat, " and before I could even get psyched about seeing the little thing he says it again. "and here's a head and a heartbeat. So you have two babies." EXCUSE ME?! I sat up as much as I could and looked at my mom and she looked like she had seen a ghost. She had a very shocked look on her face and I watched her slide down in her chair a little bit. I laid back down and I put my heads above my head like I was trying to catch my breath after a long run. Two babies?! TWO? I don't know what I said... but I think it was something like "Ohmygoshholysh**". He asked me if I was okay and I said yes and he went on with the ultrasound. He measured Baby A and Baby B and printed off some pictures for us to have. I wasn't ready for ONE baby. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH TWO BABIES?! Where are they going to go?! I think I have a fairly small frame so I don't know about carrying around two babies inside me for nine months. And after THEY (It took a few days to get used to saying "babies" and "they") arrive, where are we going to put them in our house?! Last summer, I felt like there wasn't really room for me anymore.. and now I'm back. And I'm having TWINS. Luckily, we have something figured out for now, but man oh man, is it going to be cramped until we get our own place!

Finally, my mom and I left the ultrasound room and went to go get my blood drawn (and if you know me AT ALL, you know that faint when I'm in the same room as a needle...or if my knees are locked, or if I get elbowed in the ribs, or if I get a tooth pulled, or if I get a splinter taken out of my hand, etc.). We go into the lab and this big burly man with hairy hands sits down next to me to take my blood. I told the guy that I pass out every time I get pricked with a needle and he started acting like HE was getting freaked out because I pass out. He put the rubber thingy on my arm and I turned my head and started talking to my mom. My head was so full of the thought that there were TWO LITTLE HUMANS growing inside me that I didn't even really notice the man with hairy hands poking and prodding my arm. Next thing I knew, he goes "Alright, we're done!" And I about passed out from the excitement that I didn't pass out!! We walked to another room and a nurse gave me my flu shot and the same thing happened. I'm getting tougher!!

We left the hospital and went out to the store to tell my dad the news.. My mom and I were freaking out about what my dad was going to say and I suggested we take him a beer or SOMETHING to make it a little easier. We handed him the pictures and didn't say anything. He picked up on the Baby A and Baby B thing in about 5 seconds (which was quicker than most). Everyone was shocked, surprised, worried, nervous... but its been almost two weeks. And we're getting things figured out. I think what is most scary is not having a plan. I don't like it when things don't go according to plan... and now look at my life. Full of unplanned little surprises!

The last week and a half has been CRAZY. And tomorrow starts my second trimester. Whoa. This is going by a little faster than I'd like. But everyone in my life has been wonderful. FIRST, my family. Right now, I have the emotional stability of a two year old. And thank goodness they haven't kicked me out of the house because of my mood swings! My friends have also been awesome.. letting me rant and cry and laugh uncontrollably.. I appreciate every single minute I get to spend with you crazy, crazy people. My co workers at Country Mart...AWESOME. I could not ask for a better group of people to work with. I love every single person there. In the mornings when I feel like I'm going to pass out, I just have to tell someone and they jump in my box and take over checking for me so I can go sit for a minute. The other day I had people bringing me cool rags and bottles of water. I LOVE my job and I LOVE my co workers. I can't say it enough. AND! They let me sit on a stool when I'm checking :):) And then people I don't even know have sent me Facebook messages to let me know that everything is going to be okay. My teachers from high school have also been helpful and encouraging. I just can't even believe all of the support I have gotten from people in my community. I am so thankful to live in this town.

This is becoming a novel but I have just one more quick thing to say. And it might be too much information but..whatever. Soon after my ultrasound, I started spotting. Which freaked me out. So I was calling my doctor pretty much every five minutes and they scheduled an emergency ultrasound for me just to make sure everything was okay. Reggie and my mom went with me this time, we didnt even have to hardly wait. We got in there and I was a little nervous (But I get nervous about everything..). The guy with the sea shell necklace found Baby A and it's heartbeat and then Baby B and it's heartbeat. Everything was fine. And I got to watch them dancing and bouncing around in there. We even saw Baby B opening and closing its mouth! It was cute. Long story short, I know these little people weren't planned but when I thought there might be something wrong with one or BOTH of them, I realized how much I already love them. I love showing people the pictures and even if THEY don't think my two little blobs are cute, something is wrong with them. They are the CUTEST blobs I have ever seen. I feel a rant coming on about how cute the pictures are so I better end this blog post before it becomes ridiculous.

Have a great weekend!! And happy second trimester to me and my babies (who are now the size of lemons)

Love, Olivia, Baby A and Baby B :)

P.S.- Hopefully the next post will have a picture of my precious little blobs and MAYBE a picture of my tummy. I said maybe.

What exactly is a kumquat?

Okay, I know its a fruit.. or vegetable?

Looked it up, its a fruit.

KUMQUAT: a small, round or oblong citrus fruit having a sweet rind andacid pulp, used chiefly for preserves.

Who cares about kumquats anyway?

I do!! Here's why :)

Though he's barely the size of a kumquat — a little over an inch or so long, crown to bottom — and weighs less than a quarter of an ounce, your baby has now completed the most critical portion of his development. This is the beginning of the so-called fetal period, a time when the tissues and organs in his body rapidly grow and mature.

He's swallowing fluid and kicking up a storm. Vital organs — including his kidneys, intestines, brain, and liver (now making red blood cells in place of the disappearing yolk sac) — are in place and starting to function, though they'll continue to develop throughout your pregnancy.

If you could take a peek inside your womb, you'd spot minute details, like tiny nails forming on fingers and toes (no more webbing) and peach-fuzz hair beginning to grow on tender skin.

How cute is little Blueberry/Tadpole (who is not even the size of a blueberry anymore and doesn't have a tail anymore either.. I need a new nickname...and I'm NOT calling it Kumquat. Its weird.)! Kicking and swallowing fluid! Look at ______ (new nickname here) go!  First ultrasound is January 3rd! :) 

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

-Olivia :)

The Dreaded Photography Class

I did not, I repeat, DID NOT want to take Photo 1. But my always wise advisor, Mr. Leahy, forced me to. And, surprisingly, I actually enjoy it!! ...sometimes. The first couple of pictures are from the VERY beginning of the semester and to me, they're good. They are OKAY...I mean an butterfly on a flower picture. HOW ORIGINAL (not). But I think I definitely improved over the semester. And I made lots of new friends in this class!! :)

Butterfly on a Flower.... From our VERY FIRST assignment. It's eh.

Photo from our "Abstract" assignment...

The rest of these are from our most recent assignment.. The assignment was night shots and "elements of landscape"...whatever that means. I got an A, I believe, and I'm very happy with them. In fact, my photography teacher wants a print of one of them!!! I about hyperventilated when he said he wanted it :)

I took this on the night of the first snow in Highland! You can kind of see the snow on the awnings of the stores.

This one was in my backyard and I love it. During our critique everyone in my class said it reminded them of a fairy tale. :):) (And we all know how much I love fairy tales)

This is part of an uprooted tree I found on an adventure once. 

And last, but not least, the picture my teacher likes :) Just some roots I found at the Hiawatha lake. I had to pretty much get IN the lake and stand on a very unstable rock to take this picture. Luckily, I had my sweet little friend, Anna, hold the strap for the camera just incase I fell in.. I was okay with me getting wet.. the camera, not so much. 

That's it!! I have been meaning to do this post for quite some time but just now got time. Have a happy week! 

Suprises, Suprises!

I am sure the whole town of Sabetha already knows but I don't want all 620 friends  (a number that is slowly but surely going to get to 300) on Facebook  to know all of my business. Anyway. November 19th (3 days after my 20th birthday) I found out I was pregnant. I went to the doctor for the first time on Friday, December 2nd and my doctor told me that my due date is July 17th and we'll have our first ultrasound on January 3rd. As of the 2nd, I am seven weeks along. The daddy situation is complicated and I might tackle that in a different post someday.

It was a huge surprise and of course, with me being in school and not having a full time job and especially not being married, was not planned. I've only known for two weeks but oh, how my life plans have changed so much. I have one class to take until I am completely done at Highland so I'm moving home at semester (I'll be taking the aforementioned class online) and working. Baby will get here in July so I'll work and work and work so I have a little nest egg built up and then when Baby arrives I'll take some time off but go back to working until I think it’s time to return to school.

This last semester, I feel like I have really gotten myself together. I've been on top of my school work like no one's business. My things in my room (although not perfect) are much more organized and I'm starting to see my mother in me a little when I get real upset about things not being in their place. (I'm only that way 70% of the time so I don't want anyone thinking I'm anywhere close to the organization queen that my mom is.) I'll be on the honor roll this semester at Highland, which I believe is a first for me..at least since my days at Sabetha Middle School. In high school I could've cared less about my school work. As long as I passed, I was happy. And I passed. I graduated on time, but not with the GPA I could've had. But the past is the past. This semester I finally found my motivation (it had been missing since birth).

Also this semester I decided I wanted to go to KU and participate in their Textile Design and Weaving program. I love fabric and I love artsy things so what better thing for me to do?! I thought it was absolutely perfect for me. But for now, it will have to wait a year... or a year and a half.

Baby and I will live with my parents until I am financially stable enough to handle things on my own... and I'm assuming with my financial situation right now ($4.86 in my checking account), I'll be there awhile. Until I go back to school anyway.

I am so happy and thankful for my supportive, loving, caring, reassuring, comforting, WONDERFUL family. I don't have any idea what I would ever do without them. Yes this baby was a huge surprise and not planned but I never want he/she to think that they are a mistake. Things happen for a reason and I know I will love this baby just as much as I would if it were planned. Hopefully I covered all of my bases here. I have a plan and I have a great family that will help me get through. I can't think of too much more that I need.

Enough with all the boring informative stuff. Here's some tidbits from the last two months--

1.) I drove 16 miles at 11 pm to get radishes and Lowry's seasoning salt.

2.) And then the next night I did it again to get pumpkin seeds.

3.) "Morning" sickness is a lie. It actually lasts all day long.

4.) I think my dad will be a darn cute Papa and my mom a cute Nana (or whatever her grandma name will be)..it helps that my parents are the best.. that means they'll be DOUBLE the best when they're grandparents!! Right? :)

5.) Baby is approximately the size of a blueberry and still has a tail. I occasionally refer to it as Blueberry or Tadpole.

So, after the shock and worried-ness all wears off, we can get excited right? I mean this is a BABY!! Yes, sleepless nights. Yes, diapers. Yes, crying. Yes, no money. Yes, my life revolves around someone else now (a much cuter, sweeter, softer, snuggly-er someone else). Yes, I don't know all the hardships of motherhood. But I've always wanted a family. This isn't the situation and timing I would've chosen for myself but what's done is done and there's no turning back now. So, yes, little hands. Yes, a snuggle bug. Yes, baby clothes. Yes, a little baby nose. And yes, little baby smiles.

So, thank you to everyone who has reached out to me and given me love and support. I couldn't pick a better support system to have.

Love, Olivia

...(And Blueberry) 

Fun Fabric!!

I haven't been feeling well lately so I haven't spent much time crafting. I'm still working on my yo yo quilt every now and then..hopefully I'll get it done before I'm 80. I've been looking online for some new, different fabrics and I found this website - http://www.funkyfabrix.com.au . So fun!! I'm getting lots of ideas.

and here's a pretty poster I found on Pinterest :)

I'm pretty boring lately. But I'll add some pictures of my yo yo quilt soon!!